Friday, January 23, 2009

Failing miserably.

I did horrible on my geometry finals.
I just lost a shitload of hope on the rest of my finals, cause well, I was pretty sure I did well considering how hard I studied before hand.

I'll add more on this post later guys.
Sorry, DDP!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Yo es muy cantondo.

Yup, Spanish finals today. Hmm. Yo estoy muy nervioso. (I am very nervous)
Yeah, so I presented my English project today. And I had to sing. It went pretty well, up until the point I couldn't hear the music anymore, and well... =\
Oh and I'm taking some serious consideration into trying out for the girls' tennis team. They only choose 7 girls for the Varsity team, and about 13 for Junior Varsity. But JV team never gets to play in games. =\
Yeah so, my boyfriend's trying to get me motivated to try out and stuff. I'm partially doing this just so we can both go to Tennis practices together, and we can still take the train home after school and all. And so I won't have to wait till 5pm till he gets out of school just so I can go home with him. =\
I do so much for him.
Oh, the funniest thing came up the other day.
He thinks he loves me.
Hahahaha. Isn't that hilarious?!
LOVEE?! Impossible.

Hmph. So like. My stomach hurts.
Majorly.
No it's not that time of month again. ;]

Anyways, I'm gonna go study for mi espanol.
And finish this DDP thing.
I'm starting to wonder how whenever I ask Mr.Grosshart for help, he tells me that he can answer it if I go to tutoring.
Other than that, he won't teach me shit in class. o.O

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Stressed.

My boyfriend pointed at my forehead this morning and said it was stress.
Yup, thats right, my head was braking out.
Arghhhh!

Well, on the bright side, I got my ex back, and we're going out and "happy" now.
But the kid who I just recently dumped has been taunting me ever since.
His friends have been calling me mean names whenever they pass me in the hallway.
They trashed my facebook with horrible words.
OH wells, I kinda deserved it.
So thanks a lot you guys. Love you mucho.

The talent show is a little more than a month away. Umm, geometry can just go kiss my ass....
Got such a low grade on the notebook check. Like try..110/200.
Berry berry bad.

I wanna knit my boyfriend a pair of arm warmers. Or wrist warmers, depending on how much yarn it takes. =P

And, OMG finals next week. This is pure freaking torture. Remember in grade school, when the only worries in the world were trying to get home on time so we don't miss Power Rangers? >.<
Sighh, my boyfriend's brother was taking his annual state ELA test. I miss those days...

About the whole boyfriend deal (sorry I keep coming back on this topic), I don't know, I'm very EXTREMELY happy with him. But it's not always the same anymore. Cause there's always that feeling like "oh he broke up with me once, what makes me think he's not gonna do it again?" kinda deal. Really bugs me. I wish I'd be more optimistic sometimes. Another unresolved new years resolution.
Anyways, Off to pay attention in DDP...(not gonna happen).

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

..So.........Tired.......

Bored outta my mind.
Sitting here in technology class and learning about curved orthographic projections >.<

I have to break up with my boyfriend.
I can't keep hurting him like this.
Like I'm with him, but honestly I haven't been able to get my mind off my ex ever since.
And my boyfriend, despite knowing that, is OKAY with it.
Cause (according to him) I'm "perfect," "amazing," "beautiful," and a whole bunch of other bullshit.
I honestly can't take his obsession.
Urghh. Why is this so difficult.

Oh and I haven't even told you the best part.
I was talking to my ex last night, and he's telling me how he regrests not taking me back while I was still there for him.
Sighh. I want to be with him now.
Stupid boys.

Yeah so well I have finals next week. Wonder how that's gonna turn out. =\
Wish me luckk!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Inconsiderate, Insensitive...oh and don't forget Cold-hearted.

Yeahh. Life's horrible.
It hates my very existence.
Like first of all, the new boyfriend is... >.<
He is wayyyy tooo...UGHHH!
Like he's always "omg, I'm so lucky to have you as a girlfriend" or "omg, you are soo gorgeous"
I mean at first it was like "aww" but now it's more like STFU! >.<
Anyways, he's a real sweetheart. The ex is acting really jerky about it though. He supposedly "cares about my happiness." If that was the case, we woulda been together right now. But noo, since when do things go my way.
So I've decided what song I'm singing for the talent show. =]
What Hurts The Most- Cascada. Story of my life. (for now atleast)
Now to go ask Tony how to dimend my cube thingy majigy. This has to be the worst class ever, I was kinda looking forward to volelyball today at gym, but oh wells. (Since when do things go my way?)
Sighh. This is gonna be interesting. Going out with a guy who worships the ground I walk on. Pretty darn special, but annoying too. I mean you're probably reading this like "wow, you don't appreciate what you have" but you have no idea. I didn't want to be worshipped, I wanted someone to stand next to me. Not behind. Not in front. BESIDE. You know, enough so we can hold hands and cuddle and all that cute stuff. I wish some people would just understand what I feel. Like now, people think I'm cold-hearted, inconsiderate, and insensitive. WHY? Cause I wanted to forget about my ex and live for tomorrow? Cause I wanted to move on with life? WELL SORRY FOR BEING HUMAN! >.<

OH and HAPPY NEW YEARS!
I got a shitlod of resolutions to talk about.
First on the list is getting serious with school.
Getting dad to quit smoking.
Organization, in life in general.
Hmm, thats kinda the big ones.
OH and trying to get more sleep. Definately.

Any who, my puzzle cube calls my name.
Off to next time! =]